Long time...

I cant believe its been that long since I last blogged, but life does happen. Life with the three B's is a constant go go go. Especially with Bentlee being bigger, she is one you have to watch like a hawk.  Bethanie and Brooklyn were very content in thier room with a bunch of toys.
Bethanie is busy being the Drama child, while Brooklyn is busy being the crier of the family.  Both enjoy harassing the other and love to scream "I hate you!"
Bentlee is the reason I live and breath. She is the reason I get out of bed every day.....I know for a fact that Heavenly Father gave her to me for more than one reason.
Me.....still single and working. Trying to understand life and the cards that have been dealt. I continue to believe that I'll find the answers and be able to be at peace and have balance.

Bear Lake

Hanging with my folks.....

The Zoo

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Bess Friens (as Brooklyn says)......

Happy Birthday to Bess Frien!!!

Brooklyn Nichole Freeman

Where does the time go??? It send like just yesterday I had just been wheeled to my  room at LDS Hospital and told PJ to go home. I remember so vividly the doctor coming in and saying to me: "I've ordered you a sleeping pill and we are taking the baby to the nursery. Get some sleep!" There she was my little bundle of joy in pink! I was so happy to have her and know how special she was to be here. PJ was done at one so I consider Brooklyn my little miracle!  
Today she is 5!!!! My has she grown so fast. And oh how much I love her!  If I could go back in time and watch her grow I sooo would!  She is my ray of sunshine and my joy.  I love you Ms Brooklyn Nichole and am so greatful our Heavenly Father gave me you!

Dealing with ADD

This is a post that I am very reluctant to share, but as one said: "It takes a village to raise a family."  Last July Bethanie was diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder without Hyperactivity.  It really didn't surprise me because her dad had it as a child.  So Bethanie's wonderful Doctor and I, The Team, started a medication regiment and started to watch.  WOW what a difference.  Her grades increased and she started to do better all around the board.  She was reading on a grade level and her attention in class improved and we, as her team, felt all was well.

Christmas came around and things started to go down hill. Bethanie started to fail school, her reading went to pot, her behavior (no matter where we or she was) was HORRIBLE, and my patience went out the door.

Her Doctor and I revisited things and decided it was time for an adjustment of medication and some therapy.  Great the word THERAPY!!!! From the beginning of the divorce people said that Bethanie may or may not need some therapy.....oh and did PJ have a fit!!!  She doesn't need anything like that he would say.  But at the time he didn't have a job and didn't have health insurance, so I took her anyway.  Now that he does have insurance and his is the primary insurance, I am not sure I have a choice.  The doctor told me that I didn't have a choice and she NEEDED it!!!  So off we went with the referral and the wait.

I received a phone call the other day from the referral.....PJ's insurance will not pay for the therapy and medicaid won't cover the doctor that was requested!  OMH can it be anymore harder!  Since the change in his insurance, life has been hell.  In the five years that I have been divorced I have never had to pay for a prescription or a doctor.  Now with the change of his insurance, the bills are piling up.  Just for Brooklyn alone for her acid reflux medication its $100.00 with the insurance....I can't imagine what Bethanie's will be when I pick it up from the pharmacy.

Today we area still waiting for her medication and another alternative from the doctor as far as therapy.  The medication is soooo hard to find because of its form and the misuse of it, I have had to visit five pharmacies since getting the script.  Any advice or resources would be greatly appreciated.

Easter 2013

My Beautiful Girls.......

Kids say the best things....

This morning I was trying to find the thermometer and was asking Bethanie to help.  She asked me where I had it last and I told her I threw it at Brooklyn a few days ago.  She proceeded to go into the bathroom where Brooklyn was taking a bath and said: "Brooklyn spit out the beans, where is the thermometer!" Trying not to laugh and not pee my pants I told her it was spill the beans not spit out the beans.  I'm still laughing with tears in my eyes!!!!



Today was a beautiful and wonderful day......Bethanie chose to be Baptised.  She was sooo nervous and excited at the same time.  We had a little count down from the day we sent off the invitations and this mornign when she woke up she ran into my room, with so much excitment in her face, and said: "Today's the DAY!!!" 

And was today the day. The weather was so awesome.  Everything came together so beautifully.  I couldn't of asked for it to have gone better.

Her Uncle Matthew Baptised and Confirmed her, while both Grandpas were witnesses and stood in the circle.  My dearest freind Ciro also stood in the circle and gave the closing prayer.  Her Aunt Katrina talked on Baptism and I spoke on the Holy Ghost/Comfortor.  She really went non-traditional on the music....we sang Book of Mormon Stories and I Love to See the Temple.

We were we soo blessed to have all our friends and family attend: The Freemans, The Redds, The Startups, The Newells, The Jacksons, The Abrils, Aunt Rere, Shanda, Tucker, and Meadow, Her father and some step siblings, and her old Primary President.

Thank you friends and family for all that you have done for me and my wonderful girls.  Our lives wouldn't be complete without you all.

The Cast

Gotta love the Orthopedic guys .....lets try this and come back in a week and we will see if it is working. REALLY....I guess I'm not use to all this. But whatever it takes to get my princess better.

Speaking of nick naming my girls....Bethanie will always be my angel. Brooklyn will always be my princess. Bentlee will always be my baby girl. So please don't think I am favoring one or the other.

Sledding

OMH yesterday was a mother's worst nightmare......we went sledding and my Brooklyn came down the wrong side of the hill and hit a ramp and flew in the air and landed on her hands and knees like a cat. I knew the minute she hit the ground she had broken something.

Sure enough her arm is broken......and I feel so horrible. I go back in my head over and over again and try to see if there is something I could of done. Could I of caught her or maybe I should of walked up the hill with her or I should of stuck with my decision of her not coming because she was bad all morning.

We lay in bed last night and she whined all night......once the IB got back in her system she finally fell asleep.  I held her and cried and cried and cried.  My little Brooklyn......

We head to the Orthopedic Surgeon sometime this week and have a real cast put on....until then I pray she can last in the cast/splint she has on her arm.


This too Shall Pass.........

Bentlee

Some mile stones Bentlee has accomplished over our week and a half vacation are drinking through a straw, playing with her shape sort, running after her sisters, and somewhat using a fork.
She also has five new teeth and has become the Crusty Queen.

Bethanie

So I visited the emergency room Christmas Day Eve......and man did that affect my Bethanie.

My folks watched the girls for me while I went. When I got back, Bethanie was still crying. After comforting her we headed home.

The next day I called to talk to my mother and she made me aware of what had happened while I was gone. She continued to tell me that Bethanie was so worried that I wasn't coming home.....she keep telling my mom:"I need my mom....she is so important to me.  Grandma I need my mom!" She continued to tell her I was fine and that I would be home soon.

That day I realized the she has been through soooo much and too much for an eight year old little girl. I feel so bad for putting her through this, but I did it for her. To show her the correct way for a man to treat her. I hope someday she will understand.

Baby girl at Thanksgiving

To me this was Bentlee's real first Thanksgiving and man did she have the house cracking up.  The Girls were with PJ this year down in Cedar City with his new wife's family so we headed to my parents for the big feast.  The table we used was one that my Grandma Beth had in her home for big dinners and Holidays.  We all were able to sit at it and Bentlee was in her high chair behind and kind of next to me.  We had just served up dinner and we were all eating and all of a sudden someone started to laugh and say look at Bentlee.  We all turned to look and Bentlee had decided she was done with dinner and wanted dessert.  Her high chair was next to the round table full of desserts and she had her hand in the chocolate banana cream pie just eating away.  Her hands and face were covered in whip cream and she was so enjoying it!!  I tried to take a picture, but that girl is not one for the camera.

So we ate and cleaned up, rested and watched football, and played a little spoons.  After spoons the girls decided to put Bentlee on the table and started singing that Gungman Style song and man did that girl do some dancing.  She has this move where she bends her right knee in and out and it is the cutest damn thing you ever did see.  They keep singing and we keep on laughing.

I am sooooo grateful for this precious little person. She brings out the best in me and I am not sure where I would be today if I didn't have her.  I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for letting me have her and for allowing be to be her mother.  I love Bentlee!



OMH.....

So here we are playing Just Dance 4 and Bethanie says to Brooklyn about a song...."Thats just boss!" OMH where do they get this.......the terminology these days are wacked!!!

It had to be Bentlee .....

All these years of having children, I've been able to say that my children have never played with poppy diapers ......until today. Good job baby girl way to do it.

Bethanie

 

Bethanie turned 8 this year....wow where has 8 years gone.  She is soo grown up, well at least she thinks that she has!  What a beautiful child, young lady.  I love you Bethanie, you are and will always be my little princess.

Bentlee

She is getting so big!

Bentlee is the only one....

That girl can eat a whole jar of baby food and still take an 8oz. bottle! What a little oinker she is.....

The Birthday Girl